I'm going back...

To work, that is. Tomorrow, the day after Easter.

When i created this blog I had envisioned writing my bits & pieces everyday, how Baby is growing, what he did, every nuance of my feelings as a new mom.

What actually ensued is far from my expectation. Confinement was a daze of 3 hourly feeds round the clock, napping & watching vcds (to distract myself). It was uncomfortable & tiring, I never had any continuous sleep longer than 3 hours until Baby turned 2 months, when the gap at night lengthened to at most 6 hours, meaning 5 hours of sleep.

In the 2nd month, it was a different sort of discomfort - physically I was feeling fitter & better, but left to face handling Baby on my own now, I was somewhat fearful & unsure. Baby didnt take to my carrying intially, & I had no idea what to do with him when he was awake. Day by day in what seemed like long weeks, the pieces fell into place one by one. I discovered my helper was adept at handling Baby, I managed to set a routine recommended by Babywise book (by God's grace!), I stumbled upon things he enjoys playing, I started my personal training to lose the some 10kg of pregnancy weight...I would say the 2nd month was my most eventful month. I grew to be more confident & morph into the "steady" mom image I had wanted to be.

After the somewhat arduous journey of the 2nd month, the 3rd month seemed to fly by like a breeze! Hubby & I just settled into parenthood & enjoyed our beloved Baby, bringing him swimming, shopping, house-hunting, church, and so on...watching him grow into the 8kg Baby that he is.

& now, the time has come....I am surprisingly not as put off as I thought about returning to work tomorrow. It has been a great rest these 3.5 months & very fulfilling for me. I am quite ready to go back to work & meet the new challenge of being a mom & a sales team head.

Of course, I wouldnt be so eager if not for the support of my parents whom I know will be great at taking care of Baby. I thank God that everything was so smooth & turned out to be such an arrangement. We would not have expected this last May, when I found out I was pregnant.

The other day I went to cut my hair...chatting with my friend, it suddenly struck me how happy I am. Baby is indeed such a gift to me.